I should be locked away somewhere

I have climbed to 118KG, I was so ashamed a while back but now i think i am fine. I have stopped the patch so my mood has improved, i refuse to blame the patch for all the eating i did in stockholm. I was just down 50% of the time. Anyway I decided on Tuesday that I have a great deal of problems so let me choose one to focus on and weight loss was it. I really want it is an understatement, the past few days I have been looking at my daughter and thinking how i promised that by the time she is two i will not be fat. SHe turns 2 in six months. Maybe I have ran out of time but this battle with the bulge i have to win. I went to the gym today, that's the first step I guess