On Alcohol again and general eating habits

"Just to demonstrate how true it is that alcohol is bad for exercise, infact for the body.
On Saturday I had ciders and some wine(maybe I can estimate and say 10 units of alcohol), I then spend the whole of Sunday recouperating. Monday gym was a torture compared to Tuesday. On Tuesday I did high speeds on the bike and an incline on the treadmill and even ran for about 2 minutes. So since I acknowledge that I am defeating my purpose by consuming alcohol what am I willing to do about this.
Wednesday after work I was sallivating having a cider, the worries of the day before forgotten. This is an ongoing conversation between me and alcohol."
The above was maybe twoo weeks ago, the past week I had 2 glasses of wine, a short of brandy and a cider. That is little drinking in my worl. I then went to gym the next day and was relatively fine, i could not do all my workouts as my partner wanted to go.
I felt great....the week before i had no alcohol. So slowly I am becoming responsible in my drinking. Actually if truth be told, too much red wine makes me want to throw up, white wine makes too drunk, too soon, ciders i have to drink a lot of. So the idea of eliminating alcohol is slowly becoming appealing. Not making any promises, I am weak like that.
I have been feeling good lately and gym has a lot to do with it i am sure. I have been going sic times a week which is neccessary according to bob Greene. I have also been eating differently.
When I first went back to gym i did the South Beach Diet, Phase 1 which eliminates most Carbs. It was good but after 12 days i felt i was just eating too much protein so i looked for something different.
The eating plan:
Breakfast: Cereal(ofcourse not all cereals are made equal but i chose oats) + fat free dairy
Snack: Rice cake or similar
Lunch: Fruit
Snack: Fat free soup
Supper:veges, Salad, lean meat and portion of carbs

I must say I like the eating cereal in the morning, Cause I love my all bran flakes. I love apples too and they are so filling.
I am still in the cleansing stage of the eating programme, from next week I will eat according to my blood group which is O. Apparently protein is good for my weight loss which explains why the SBD worked for me.

Glycemic index eating proves credible

I have been a strong believer in low glycemic index eating since 2005. When I went to a dietician and she actually prescribed a diet that follows low glycemic index eating. I lost weight on that and I don't remember being hungry.
Basically there are foods that are absorbed quicker into the body and cause your insulin levels to rise, these are the foods to avoid. How we should be eating especially to lose weight is eating low glycemic index foods. I read an article where they interviewed Patrick Holford and he went into details about about following a low glycemic diet and using food to heal the body's ailments, which is similar what the science of being well is preaching only that you heal yourself period with your thoughts.
Then I read an interesting blog post by Bruce Cohen where he talks about a book that smashes all beliefs about obesity. Where the author(Gary Taubes) of Good calories, bad calories highlights and blames "refined carbohydrates, starches, and sugars" for most morden ailments including obesity. Which ofcourse all ties in well with the South beach diet as the the first stage eliminates almost all these and maintanance uses good carbs and limited sugar.
I'm sold on limiting cabs but not on forgeting exercise as apparently all it does is make you hungry. Nope I think exercise is good especially if you don't lead an active lifestyle. If I climbed four floors of stairs to the office and walked the dog in the afternoon and chased my daughter in the park then I would not worry about devoting time to exercise but I need it and it works I have seen it. Problem so far I have been halfhearted, losing, gaining and losing and lately breaking leg and sitting for 6 weeks. Such that today my gym calls telling me I have not been to the gym this month I need to check with my medical aid and notify them why I can't go to gym or else I loose my benefits of lifetime membership at R650. See I have to go 24 times in a year. I explain to this girl that the medical aid expalined it as take number of times that I went to gym devided by 12 months, that must be greater than two. Nope the lady says, I agree to call the medical aid then she goes on to ask me if I know a family by the same name as mine....Why do people do that. Anyway she was wrong.......But I will be back at gym it is just this leg problem. I can't wait to be back at gym if only to swim. I miss swimming and thats it.......if I had a warm pool where I stay I would probably not go to gym. I would walk/jog and go to the pool.

114.6kg Gym scale reading

I am at the gym, just did 30 minutes cardio and 15 or so minutes on the weights. I skipped the weight machines that would have caused a strain on my knee. I am officially a person with knee problems, it locks whenever and am generally aware of it by the numbish pain around the joint. So I have decided to lay off running or jogging for a while and do the eliptical(????) machines at the gym. I reckon as soon as I can swim sort of properly I should do that more often. I will still run a 5km race by year end but am cooling it on cement running.
This week I am doing Phase 1 of the south beach diet and am intending on following through for reAL THIS TIME. I will do phase 1, then 2 and eat for life like that. I am determined to lose this lard. I was playing with my daughter yesterday and I kept remembering a promise I made to her about how I would have conqured this hill by her age 2. If i am to live up to that I have less than 7 months.
I was reading an interview on the O magazine about practical living, where you do it anyway. That's sort of my philosophy but on and off. The guy says be scared of failure but do what you have to do inspite of it. Forget going to your past to heal wounds, act in the now and get confidence boosters in the present. Those heal a low self esteem in the present. Cause truly i have looked at things in my past for so long:
I know i loved my grandmother and she loved me back with a passion and I HAVENT BEEN loved like that since
I know some creap had me in his flat at age 4/5 and fed me fish paste and might have fondled with my privates, my mom mantains that I definately was not penetrated. I know that i might have been as I didnt bleed the first time i had intercourse but I have no memory of it so why dwell on a maybe.
I know i was a fat kid that led to low self esteem and led me to look for comfort in excelling at school. Thats why I was obsessed with coming top of the class, cause i had nothing else going for me,
I know all of these things and I have analysed them, thats why I accepted bad relationships cause I did not think i was worthy of more. of devotion and unconditional love. I went pass that stage and have moved, so all that is needed is action. I want to loose weight, what must be done. I need to improve my earnings, what must be done. Just do, do and if you fail brush yourself up and continue doing, that is what will develop a sense of trust in me.

Recently

I love to read right, so I sent some old books of mine(nine to be exact) to this second hand bookshop. I wanted at least R100 for them, but all they offering is R30, that wont do. But while at the shop i find the South beach diet and browse through it. There's a part where the guy says "eating makes you hungry", what does that mean. I couldnt like read the whole book in the store but will go buy it when I have money. It\s interesting the South beach diet. I tried it last year and sometimes follow the principles to detox, I mean the phase 1 principles. I have not i realise done it so it would be interesting to read from the doctor himself why it is safe and good for one.
In other news there's this gal at the office, not thin but not fat. She says she is working out with a trainer 2 times a week and she has finally found where her triceps are, her arms hurt. makes me think maybe, since i am so averse to lifting, maybe i should try an instructor to get me into things.