Anything can become a habit

I have been starting my day with lemon juice for the better part of 2 months(christmas/new year break i faltered) and I have found that I am beginning to like the taste. It was reccommended in the Medi-shape diet I followed. (thats another post). At the beginning I did it cause I felt anything so ugly must be good for me and ofcourse it was part of the diet so I did it. But I have not been on the eating plan for three weeks but I have kept up with the lemons. Go anywhere on the net they'll tell you, they're good for the skin,digestion etc.
A habit I want to get back to is gym, I was so comfortable with going in the morning last year but that might be hard this year as I am toilet training my daughter at night. She use to wear a nanny to sleep but now I make her go pee every 3hours or so. My mother(who started the process) assures me in time it will be 4hours, then 5 hours and then no more waking in the night to pee. I look forward to that day. So an alternative will be to go to my favourite gym on weekends and the gym at work during the week. Use my lunch hour ofcourse. I will try it out, i have brought my gym bag today, just like yesterday but i had failed to go. When there are two people in the work gym it's too many, when I saw 2 marines in there working some iron I just went back to my desk. I hope I can change that or find a better solution to the potty training sleep disturbance thing.

Damage

Do not get me started on the damage I did to my eating plan over the easter weekend. Pizza, chocolate, mieliemeal, samp, cereal everyday, variations of it(Maltabella one day, oata, mielie pap). i did a lot of damage. On top of it I had soft drinks, I mean really. But today I have resolved to BE FAT NO MORE. I am sick of it, i am sick of my life recvolving around ukutya, so I shall do the right thing. Eat as I best know how, choose the right fruits, nuts, vegetables and avoid all these saturated fats and concentrated sugars.

• Chocolate, if it aint dark i am not eating it.
• Coffee, i mean what the big deal with coffee, I only drink it cacause its sweet but other than that I dont like it. I have been drinking unsweetened bush/herbal tea and i liked it. So if I must have something warm it shall be herbal tea without sugar.
• I will not subject myself to eating tasteless food, izolo i ate some nuts with cottage cheese and bulgarian youghurt, it was yak but I just ate it. Some excuse about keeping my metabolism going so my blood sugar dont drop so low. Please, at some point during the day I was eating an egg and I wasnt even hungry and our receptionist was like 'you are always eating' and i snapped talking about do i go around commenting when she eats 11 slices of white bread. You know I think by being vocal about wanting to loose weight I have opened myself up to every tom dick and harry to have a say. Why are you eating this, why salad in the morning, why sprite zero this. I mean really now, i should just keep quiet and do it already. Let the results speak for themselves.
• I must accept that physical exercise is my everyday life, gym or running- it is my life. I cannot not exercise all else I lose everyhting i want. Talking about gym this gal at the gym was hogging one circuit nmachine, I mean the rules are spelt out, when the timer goes, you should be off to the next one. So she hogged it for 4 gos, I mean, so she could see I was irritated, I literally sat and waited(i did some streches) and finally she's done. I go on, barely giving her a chance to take her towel off. I think she said morning in that funny way. My point is why should I be nice when she's breaking the rules, she must think FAT bitch, how about doing something else while you wait for this machine surely that will help your cause too. But i dont care, i dont like being unkind but she shouldnt do that. At a gym you are forever aware of others and you know who is doing which cycle, why then should you pretend that you exist alone. Why should you be inconsiderate.
• Swimming has to be my life, I will master it this year,s o that my exercise can be varied.
• I am still to get a bicycle but i do want to ride by the end of the year.

Ok so i am positive, upbeat and determined. i am losing weight for good. By the way I weighed in at 114.4kg today.