I am starting all over again with weight loss, clearly I have been failing because I am doing something wrong. I have been on so many diets that when I try to commit to losing weight I mix-up principles from each diet I have been on. Today I was chatting to a collegue who said " when i was on weigh-less....", I thought to myself; how many programmes have you tried chick. But then I remembered I went on weighless way back in 2003. I have been on the South beach diet, medishape, eat when you hungry, low GI, Doctor prescibed plans, bioslim, icon natural and horror of all horrors duromine.
I'm sure many have travelled this road but I just did not know what is what anymore so I am going back to basics.
One plan and lets see where it takes me.
I signed up for sureslim
I have been weighed, measured, given the book with success stories etc. This is officially my second week, all I have to say is "eating healthy is expensive". I never knew pumpkin seeds could cost this much.
I am feeling the good effects of the 3kg weight loss already and people are already commenting. People being my cousin and collegues, now it must be remembered that my cousin is brutal with comments when one gains weight, she once told me "You are so round, this has to stop gal". So to hear her say "the diet is working" one tends to believe her. Not that I need someone to tell me how good I am looking or if I have lost weight, but it confirms that I am on the right track.
SO I am back on the weight loss, regaining my life blog because I am actually on weight loss track. I need somewhere to record this experience once again and hopefully it might help someone else out there.
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Wednesday, 14 July 2010
Wednesday, 5 August 2009
I am traumatized
Losing weight and gaining it and losing it and gaining it again is so traumatic.
I have been relatively happy for a while, if I do say so myself but today was just terrible. I know I should not wake up late, but I did today, so I rushed through the shower, dressing, brushing this stupid hair and did my face in the car. As a result I am wearing my pants that need mending, a green leather (I highly doubt it cause it makes noise everytime I move) jacket that my mom sold to me (that woman sells me everything from bags, pots, presles bedding and anything she is directly selling I just have to support her). So here I am with an itching head, cause I have a weave on and the gal who did it pulled my hair so thight there's nothing for my scalp to do but itch. Long story short I am feeling shitty, oh it does not help that we have a visiting officer who is just gorgeous.
I mean this woman is Beautiful, the first time I saw her, I was like wow. I spoke about her for 3 straight days, I would not blame my joburg friends for thinking I am gay or something. But this girl is beautiful, I mean you can look at her forever. Infact she's the kind of girl who I would not mind if my boyfriend gawked at, cause I would be mesmerized myself. Anyway she has image issues too, although I must admit she could be pulling that to make us mere mortals not feel so bad. The thing is she's not skinny so she reckons, she's fat and no guy will approach her. But ofcourse I think guys are just plain scared.
Let me demonstrate how beautiful this gal is, 2 days ago we walk over to the cafeteria cause she wants breakfast, so Caroline, the cook comes to the counter,
"Morning Caroline, this is H****mi**, she's gonna be with my section for a while"- thats me
"Oh nice to meet you Caroline" my coleague says
"Nice to meet you too my dear, what a preety gal you are" this is caroline
"Wow, Thank you" My colleague says, as if she does not believe her.
Anyway so I have this goddess in the office and I am just not doing my best with what i have, what else would i feel.
and i know it, my feeling good is so greatly affected by my outside. I have to do the face and do it well, I have to have the right outfit and proper feel good hair. But no, I had to push myself down the hill of self-loathing.
Anyway I need a plan, I need to do something. I have gained too much, the rest of my life is not so dandy, Please God let there be one thing iIcontrol in this hurricane I call my life.
I have been relatively happy for a while, if I do say so myself but today was just terrible. I know I should not wake up late, but I did today, so I rushed through the shower, dressing, brushing this stupid hair and did my face in the car. As a result I am wearing my pants that need mending, a green leather (I highly doubt it cause it makes noise everytime I move) jacket that my mom sold to me (that woman sells me everything from bags, pots, presles bedding and anything she is directly selling I just have to support her). So here I am with an itching head, cause I have a weave on and the gal who did it pulled my hair so thight there's nothing for my scalp to do but itch. Long story short I am feeling shitty, oh it does not help that we have a visiting officer who is just gorgeous.
I mean this woman is Beautiful, the first time I saw her, I was like wow. I spoke about her for 3 straight days, I would not blame my joburg friends for thinking I am gay or something. But this girl is beautiful, I mean you can look at her forever. Infact she's the kind of girl who I would not mind if my boyfriend gawked at, cause I would be mesmerized myself. Anyway she has image issues too, although I must admit she could be pulling that to make us mere mortals not feel so bad. The thing is she's not skinny so she reckons, she's fat and no guy will approach her. But ofcourse I think guys are just plain scared.
Let me demonstrate how beautiful this gal is, 2 days ago we walk over to the cafeteria cause she wants breakfast, so Caroline, the cook comes to the counter,
"Morning Caroline, this is H****mi**, she's gonna be with my section for a while"- thats me
"Oh nice to meet you Caroline" my coleague says
"Nice to meet you too my dear, what a preety gal you are" this is caroline
"Wow, Thank you" My colleague says, as if she does not believe her.
Anyway so I have this goddess in the office and I am just not doing my best with what i have, what else would i feel.
and i know it, my feeling good is so greatly affected by my outside. I have to do the face and do it well, I have to have the right outfit and proper feel good hair. But no, I had to push myself down the hill of self-loathing.
Anyway I need a plan, I need to do something. I have gained too much, the rest of my life is not so dandy, Please God let there be one thing iIcontrol in this hurricane I call my life.
Thursday, 27 March 2008
Damage
Do not get me started on the damage I did to my eating plan over the easter weekend. Pizza, chocolate, mieliemeal, samp, cereal everyday, variations of it(Maltabella one day, oata, mielie pap). i did a lot of damage. On top of it I had soft drinks, I mean really. But today I have resolved to BE FAT NO MORE. I am sick of it, i am sick of my life recvolving around ukutya, so I shall do the right thing. Eat as I best know how, choose the right fruits, nuts, vegetables and avoid all these saturated fats and concentrated sugars.
- Chocolate, if it aint dark i am not eating it.
- Coffee, i mean what the big deal with coffee, I only drink it cacause its sweet but other than that I dont like it. I have been drinking unsweetened bush/herbal tea and i liked it. So if I must have something warm it shall be herbal tea without sugar.
- I will not subject myself to eating tasteless food, izolo i ate some nuts with cottage cheese and bulgarian youghurt, it was yak but I just ate it. Some excuse about keeping my metabolism going so my blood sugar dont drop so low. Please, at some point during the day I was eating an egg and I wasnt even hungry and our receptionist was like 'you are always eating' and i snapped talking about do i go around commenting when she eats 11 slices of white bread. You know I think by being vocal about wanting to loose weight I have opened myself up to every tom dick and harry to have a say. Why are you eating this, why salad in the morning, why sprite zero this. I mean really now, i should just keep quiet and do it already. Let the results speak for themselves.
- I must accept that physical exercise is my everyday life, gym or running- it is my life. I cannot not exercise all else I lose everyhting i want. Talking about gym this gal at the gym was hogging one circuit nmachine, I mean the rules are spelt out, when the timer goes, you should be off to the next one. So she hogged it for 4 gos, I mean, so she could see I was irritated, I literally sat and waited(i did some streches) and finally she's done. I go on, barely giving her a chance to take her towel off. I think she said morning in that funny way. My point is why should I be nice when she's breaking the rules, she must think FAT bitch, how about doing something else while you wait for this machine surely that will help your cause too. But i dont care, i dont like being unkind but she shouldnt do that. At a gym you are forever aware of others and you know who is doing which cycle, why then should you pretend that you exist alone. Why should you be inconsiderate.
- Swimming has to be my life, I will master it this year,s o that my exercise can be varied.
- I am still to get a bicycle but i do want to ride by the end of the year.
Ok so i am positive, upbeat and determined. i am losing weight for good. By the way I weighed in at 114.4kg today.
Wednesday, 5 March 2008
Sugar
I haven't had sugar, normal sugar anyway in a long time. Today i had some in my coffee. I was out of the office so there was no sugar substitute. I felt so sleepy afterwards I couldnt believe it. I drank water and felt better and then was sleepy again.
Anyway at gym today \i did the rowing machine. it got me to decide that i will do something i haven't done before. Maybe I might even take a spinning class???? Just maybe
Anyway at gym today \i did the rowing machine. it got me to decide that i will do something i haven't done before. Maybe I might even take a spinning class???? Just maybe
Monday, 5 November 2007
When you need help
I am disgusted at myself. It seems such a trend, during the week i dont do so bad but weekends i just wolf junk. I havent been exercising very well and it would be so easy to blame my daughter Cos the minute i am around her she wants me and only me, i cant get up early to go jog cos she wont let me out her sight. But i cant blame the kid,i know i am adorable and the BEST MOMMY in the whole world(that could have something to do with my irresistible yummy milk coming from the boobs). What i mean is i always had solutions, when i could exercise in winter i had an alternative, i parked far and walked. Now i just have excuses and it's showing. I cant start my new job like this, at least i must be the same. i can't go home having gained.
So i am slowly going to do the right thing, cereal with 2% milk and salads, salads, salads.
i dont know about the exercise, i wish i had a stationery bike. i wish i knew how to bike and had a real bike and could cicyle to work.
In other news, i am not pregnant, the period has confirmed, all that worrying for nothing. Which then neccessitate i visit my gynae and discuss the patch as a contraceptive alternative for me. I hate the pills and the injection. they mess with my hormones and i eat a lot and and and and they are just not my favourite OK.
So i am slowly going to do the right thing, cereal with 2% milk and salads, salads, salads.
i dont know about the exercise, i wish i had a stationery bike. i wish i knew how to bike and had a real bike and could cicyle to work.
In other news, i am not pregnant, the period has confirmed, all that worrying for nothing. Which then neccessitate i visit my gynae and discuss the patch as a contraceptive alternative for me. I hate the pills and the injection. they mess with my hormones and i eat a lot and and and and they are just not my favourite OK.
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